Could He Exist Here?




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My name's Alice. 21. Californian. Here's a place for all the random things that cross my mind, for my art, writings and thoughts, and a place for you to come dream with me.

Currently majorly obsessing about: Doctor Who, Rosex10, David Tennant, Arthur Darvill, AmyxRory, 11. Hunger Games. Harry Potter. Pushing Daisies. Big Bang Theory. Jim Parsons. SheldonxPenny. Hurts. Theo Hutchcraft. ArthurxAriadne. Inception. Alice in Wonderland. Tim Burton/Johnny Depp things. Tangled. Legend of Zelda. Once Upon a Time. Tom Hiddleston. RDJude. Sherlock Holmes/John Watson. Joseph Gordon Levitt. Zooey Deschanel. New Girl. Elementary. Downton Abbey. Lana Del Rey. Pretty boys and men in general. My little doggggg. Pretty things. Funny things. YUMMY THINGS. Lord of the Rings. Did I mention Doctor Who?

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Can I just say that…. 

I don’t understand why there isn’t a lot of Huntsman posts in the OUAT tag right now?! I mean….hello!!! We saw Huntsman again! Where’s all the people that were crying about his death back in the first half of the season? Am I the only one screaming because I saw him back?? Come on, I can’t be the only one!!

I mean yes the finale was great (I was honestly impressed) and there was so much awesome going on - I was pretty pleased! And furthermore, RUMBELLE!!!! Rumples is so…CUTE when he has Belle! Gah! Their few minutes of being together made my heart explode more than the rest of the episode combined. So I’m also so crazy about that too! (I srsly have the hots for those dark guys who can only be changed by the one woman they love kind of storylines…./cough)

But….where is the Huntsman love?! Hopefully we’ll be seeing a LOT more of him in Season 2, even if it’s just him in “the past”! Then again, with the curse broken and magic returned by Rumples, all kinds of shit could happen. Imo, the perfect solution would be to resurrect Huntsman as well. So here’s to an even better Season 2 - and for Emma to continue being (finally) kick-ass as well!



WOW. The Doctor, The Widow and the Wardrobe 

was SO CUTE!!!!! SOOOOO CUTE!!!!! AND SAD!! AND SWEEEEET!!!! AND AGH CUUUUTEEE <3 I LOVE IT.

What a perfect special. To be honest, I had low expectations because well….Season 6 finale wasn’t the besssst, for instance…but agh. I think Moffat has a specialty for scary things AND Xmas Specials. I think he’s good with short stories in general, things that get wrapped up/resolved in one episode. Not that good with season-long storylines though….not bad, but not great either.

But that’s not the point here. What I wanted to say was this thing totally touched me!! T_T Made me shed a tear with the Doctor at the end!! It was so sweeeeet and touching <3 And ah, I was just dying at the ending. Esp. the Rory/Amy bit was perfect, just what I wanted. 

I really do like it. They twisted everything around perfectly and resolved it wonderfully (unlike the way the Doctor avoided his death in the finale…cough) and drew all these parallels….I had a field day babbling about every parallel/connection/play on things they did as I watched. The whole star thing and the whole followed me home thing and at the end, the whole happy crying/ humany wumany thing… oh you couldn’t get any cuter with things, could you,  Moffat? Your last Xmas special and this one were all very cute, and you do make good little love stories, I think. You do.

And it’s like the Doctor finally realizes he kinda does have a family now….for the first time in a very, very long time….not just love (like with Rose) but a whole FAMILY. He’s so moved by this realization at the end that he stands there for moments just trying to take it in and then realizes he’s feeling this human emotion of being at home and being reunited and being loved and being moved too…and it made him shed a tear. I was like AGH DOCTOR YOU’RE SO PERFECT T______T

This thing has also really put me in the Xmas spirit. Even though it’s like, a day late now. OH WELL!

<3 Lovely thing to watch at the end of a lovely day. :) Who’d have thought I’d have such a spontaneously wonderful Christmas? Flowers of War in a little independent theater (new experience!) delicious Ghiradelli sundaes and a scrumptious (albeit very expensive) dinner at Boudin. Ahhh…

These past few days have been great, and I think they’ll only get better! 



Doctor Who Confidential finale. T___T 

WHY DID THE ENDING MAKE ME FEEL SO SAD

SO MANY FEELINGS AGAIN

ARTHUR DARVILL EVEN SANG AND KAREN TOO

AND THEN THAT RECAP OF THE WHOLE SEASON T___T



OH MY GOD I just realized that the Doctor never does say goodbye to Rory really in this episode, either. 

I watched him ditch Rory in God Complex and was really sad, but I hung on because I had hopes that he would say something to them one last time in the finale and make it all good ;~;

BUT HE DIDN’T

HE DIDN’T

I AM SO. I AM SO DISAPPOINT. I AM SO UPSET NOW. WHYYYYY DOCTORRR

I mean I forgot about it all with the excitement of the finale but now I REMEMBER, I REMEMBER YOU AND WHYYYYY COULDN’T YOU HAVE TOLD HIM GOODBYE PROPERLY TOO Q_Q HE WILL LIVE THE REST OF HIS LIFE THINKING YOU SAID BYE TO AMY ON THE CAR BUT LEFT JUST WHEN HE WAS COMING OUT TO GIVE YOU A DRINK

POOR RORY



AHHHH THE SEASON 6 FINALE. THOUGHTS AND QUESTIONS. 

I dont know I dont know. So like, it actually wasn’t as bad as I thought it’d be. I thought it would be too rushed, and I was freaking out that Rory would die for good LOL (and when he was getting electrified I was like shitshitshit noooo…but then Amy came back for him and OH MY GOD HOW I LOVED THAT WHOLE PART) but yea anyways. It wasn’t actually too bad. It got me really excited and I was bouncing around in my seat the whole time totally hyped up. It was good, had super nice Amy/Rory bits, MENTIONED ROSE TYLER, in fact made all kinds of yummy lummy references, and even made me like River more (and tbh, I’ve always been a bit iffy about her - she was ok but never a favorite). The fact that she stopped time just to save him was sweet. <3 Also, the “wedding” wasn’t too bad - like everyone says, you can see River loves the Doctor, but the Doctor…just ends up trusting her. He’s not in love with her the way he was with Rose, but he does trust this “hell in heels”. And that’s nice. It works for me.

Also, the way Amy killed Madam Kovarian? Sweet. And also, the Silence made good “exciting” moments, and the computer graphics/special effects in this weren’t too shabby! I’m also glad, to be honest, that this wasn’t a finale that contained too much Dalek/Cybermen (which imo got a little old), and had a new monster problem instead.

Now that I’ve summed up the good parts about it, I do have some… things I need to question, things I feel incomplete about. First off, what IS the damn stupid question?

Is it “Doctor Who?” If so, that’s kinda lame lol. Iono. I spose it works, but at the same time, ehh…. Is it because, in the end, no one still knows his name? But….why would that mean…Silence would fall, whether it meant Kovarian’s cult or the Doctor himself? What does his name have to do with anything?? Is it simply because he’s the “oldest thing in the universe”? No offense, but….what about Face of Boe? (The more I think about this, the more confused I’ll get.)

Then again, it seemed at the beginning that BECAUSE Dorian tells the Doctor the question, it is why he has to die now….at first he could have gotten away, but as the saying goes, curiosity killed the cat. Still…halfway through the episode that idea seemed to get lost, so iono again.

And finally, I liked that he doesn’t really tell her his name, so nobody knows still. But then I think, wait…doesn’t she whisper his name to David Tennant in Silence in the Library? If she does, then….what??? How does she know?? That would be another thing that doesn’t make sense, another question unanswered. Still, I could be remembering that wrong.

We also still don’t know what the Doctor saw in his room in God Complex. I thought it might be significant for the finale, but…guess not :(((

Also, the ending to this epsiode seemed just a tad sudden, and not…touching enough a note to be something you end on. Finales (especially if you are leaving us until 2012 fall) should have something a little more…heartwarming, or heartbreaking. But the whole episode was on such a roller coaster that the ending just suddenly felt like I screeched to a halt. I was left there watching the credits roll thinking, “But that’s it???”

True, he’s said his goodbyes to Amy, Rory, Craig and everyone in the last two episodes already. And they were touching and sad. And they probably did that to give this finale all the time it needed. Buuuut….ugh! I wish we could have had some goodbyes here, something to slow us down before we had to stop. This was just too sudden and I feel robbed somehow of DW time! QQ

Furthermore, in this case…..when he says goodbye to Amy and Rory in God Complex, it really is the last time they meet. ;~; At first I was seeing the teasers for this finale thinking YES they meet with him again!! But actually it’s just all another universe and also just all…..during Utah time. :( That time when Doctor sees Amy and Rory in the mall, it really is the end. When you realize he had a chance to say hi to them there, and didn’t, and probably never will again….you FEEL SO FUCKING SAD

Lastly, I can’t help but think that this WHOLE episode, and all the crazy time gone wrong stuff, could have been avoided if the Doctor just told River at Silencio that hi! I’m Teselecta! Kill me it’s ok I’ll still be fine! Then she would never have frozen time for him (and I still don’t get how she did that, either, nor how she stopped the suit) and…everything would have been averted and stuff. Lol. It was like, Doctor, you coulda saved yourself a lot of trouble if you told her then instead of on the top of the pyramid what you had done. So why didn’t you?? And whatchu get all disappointed in her for? You’re the one that didn’t tell her your whole plan initially ):<

Also, if the other timeline ended up not happening because time begins to start again, then…does that mean Madame Kovarian is still alive somewhere out there?? Ew no, please tell me she’s somehow dead permanently UGH. Same with the Silence. DOUBLE UGH

And also….does this mean the Doctor is now officially 1100+ years old?? Christ. And using the Teselecta to escape death….seemed slightly like a cheap shot to me, but whatever. It works I guess. I just wish something more epic was done (I was actually all for River somehow dying but saving his life with her death, but I guess she has to die in Silence in the Library so MEH OK MOFFAT)

And JACK’S STAG PARTIES????! LOOOOOOL?

So….sigh. I DONT KNOW. It was good, but not perfect. It could have been a little more solid in clarifying everything. Sure, it answered a lot of stuff. Everything was clicking into place. But then, at the end, you still feel like….WAIT - WHAT ABOUT…THIS AND THAT…WAIT

I guess that’s why the reviews said, “It raises new questions.” FFFFF! How am I supposed to wait until next year for Series 7?? WHAT AM I GONNA DO FOR A YEAR AND THERE WILL BE NO MORE AMY AND RORY I AM GOING TO BE SO SAD.

I doubt Xmas Special will really answer too many questions, because usually those are a bit disconnected to the main plot :(

And is it too much to hope that Amy and Rory will be in the Xmas special? And that…I will get more proper farewells to soothe my aching heart in that one too? Doubt it, somehow…

I suppose that’s all I had to say. As a whole, I did like it, it was satisfying just till the very end when I was like Rory/amy COME BACK :( So I’ll just end it with….how hot was Rory when he was sacrificing himself for Amy and Co. again?? BAH I LOVE HIS CHARACTER SO MUCH NOW. THAT SCENE WAS THE BEST THING IN THIS WHOLE EP LOL. And also the Rose Tyler mention. Doctor, your heart stays true~~~ <3